I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do with myself.

I don't remember what happiness felt like, I fell into this hole around 7th grade and I've sunk deeper and deeper. I can't see the light anymore at all, and I don't think it is possible to come back out.

Everyone around me at college and having fun makes me mad. It pisses me off. Today was football game day. I live in an all-male dorm and a bunch of guys were bringing girls to their rooms. One room had its window wide open and I could see a girl getting undressed in their (was not a peeping tom). What the fuck. Why can't I do that. What is wrong with me. I know I need to socialize more but I have bad anxiety. I hate it.

I hated high school and it was the biggest waste of four years of my life. I'm not going to go through another four years. I'm just not. It's torture. Death is better than torture. Torture is worse than grieving.

I don't have any friends. I don't know how to make friends. I don't like to socialize because it makes me uncomfortable. If I say what I feel most people find me annoying. So I just pretend to act normal. I started pretending in 7th grade. I've lost my sense of identity, confidence, and and sense of well-being.

I used to have a girl friend. She was a friend until I told her I liked her. Then she took me off her facebook.

I'm bored with life. Nothing excites me anymore. I don't understand why I go to a top-ranked school when I don't do anything in my free time. What is the point of school anyways if there's nothing outside of it?

I hate my family and I love being away from them.

I thought life was going to change for the better once I got to college. Apparently not. One thing is for sure...am I not going to endure this pain for another four years, and then even worse for the rest of my life. It just isn't going to happen.

I'm ready to go. When I think about death I think pain-free. Which sounds absolutely fantastic. I would probably be better remembered anyway, since no one seems to care.

Stop feeling depressed (its that simple)

Realize that being positive is no harder than being negative.

You just have to change those negative thoughts into positive ones.... it really is that easy!  

Don't "try and be positive".... Actually believe that you are..... and you will feel a difference.  

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Well its such a simple thing...

Stop feeling depressed (its that simple)

Realize that being positive is no harder than being negative.

You just have to change those negative thoughts into positive ones.... it really is that easy!  

Don't "try and be positive".... Actually believe that you are..... and you will feel a difference.

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piss off little kid

I have tried depression medication and am still taking it. I've been seeing both a psychologist and a psychiatrist.

And I don't believe in God.

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Well its such a simple thing...

Stop feeling depressed (its that simple)

Realize that being positive is no harder than being negative.

You just have to change those negative thoughts into positive ones.... it really is that easy!  

Don't "try and be positive".... Actually believe that you are..... and you will feel a difference.

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